Paloma Faith has described motherhood as ‘hell’.
The singer, who gave birth to her first child with husband Leyman Lahcine in December 2016, admitted that despite raising her child with her husband, she sometimes finds being a mum ‘lonely’ .
‘Don’t get me wrong, I love my child, but it’s hell,’ she confessed to the i newspaper.
‘It doesn’t matter how much help you’ve got, no one can explain how lonely it feels at night when you’re waking up breast-feeding and you spend hours just wired on your own and you lose the will to live in a way, because your hormones are going mad and your husband is usually asleep snoring next to you. There’s so much resentment.’
Paloma has never revealed the sex of her child after deciding to raise it gender neutral, admitting the decision has caused a few misconceptions about her parenting.
‘I want two or three kids in all and they’ll be gender neutral. I just want them to be who they want to be,’ she added of her future baby plans.
‘I wasn’t saying ‘let’s mutilate my child’s genitals. I do totally think that people should live as they choose to but I wasn’t talking about that.
‘I was talking about actually allowing my child to have all the opportunity that they can. Because I was raised like that myself. I was always called a girl but I had Lego and Meccano and I had dolls but I didn’t like them so I had the choice.’
The mum-of-one also admitted that she ended her maternity leave early due to her family running out of money.
She added: ‘I’m not well-off. I think it was a combination of wanting to stay relevant but also generating an income. My accountant called me and said, “you need to think about earning some money now, because otherwise…”[she remembers.] I had a little panic.’