'I didn't see the point in carrying on' Carol Vorderman opens up about feeling suicidal during depression battle

She says her children stopped her taking her own life

Carol Vorderman has opened up about her depression battle on Lorraine, saying she felt suicidal but her children stopped her taking her own life.

The presenter suffered from depression for six months due to hormonal changes during the menopause.

Talking to Lorraine, Carol explained how her depression was the only menopause symptom she experienced, but she didn't 'see the point in life' while she was suffering from it.

'I didn't have any other symptoms. I didn't have the night sweats or anything like that, and it didn't occur to me; I was just getting on with it.

'[I was] powering on doing this and building houses and flying a plane and bringing up my kids by myself, and all of those different things. And then this depression hit me, and I don't use the word depression lightly.'

Carol opened up about her depression battle on Lorraine

The former Countdown star said she would feel a 'blackness' when she woke up, despite having no other worries in her life.

'This was a blackness where I would wake up; nothing else in my life was going wrong, I'm a very lucky woman, no money worries or nothing like that; and I would wake up and I thought, 'I don't see the point in carrying on. I just don't see the point in life. I don't see it', she said on the show.

Admitting she felt suicidal during her battle with depression, Carol said the only reason didn't take her own life were her two children.

'And there was no reason to feel that way and the only reason I didn't do anything, and I've not admitted it before, is because I had two children.'

She eventually sought help from doctors and was prescribed gels to use, which she said made her feel a lot better.

'From the moment I took it, I have never, ever, ever felt that way. I mean, I've been fed up, and right now my mum isn't well, so I'm upset.

'But there is a reason for all of those things, whereas before there was no reason for it, and it was absolutely, categorically to do with hormones', Carol said.

The 56-year-old also hopes people who might be suffering from mental health issues can find the help they need: 'We should be talking about it... it is terrifically important.'


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