A mum wrote a viral Facebook post explaining the heartbreaking reason why she thinks no one should ever joke about pregnancy.
In March 2017, Kayla suffered a miscarriage. Taking to Facebook to share her story, the mum’s emotional post explained why joking about being pregnant is never funny.
With April Fools’ just around the corner, Kayla wants to make sure that people never forget how hard it is for some people to conceive and the pain of losing a baby.
In her post, Kayla wrote: ‘This is why your April fools joke isn’t funny. This is why it’s not funny to lie and joke about being pregnant. This is what it looks like to have a miscarriage. A week ago today I started spotting. I convinced myself it was normal because I did it with Keegan. This time it wasn’t.’
The post continued: ‘I avoid laying down to go to sleep because as soon as I hit the bed I’m alone with all of my thoughts. My brain has finally stopped distracting itself from the one thing breaking my heart. And all I can do is cry. My eyes are so swollen and dark it looks like more than just my heart is broken. Crying so hard that you go numb and feel nothing anymore. Being so angry and upset at everything but not being able to explain why.
‘Trying to be happy that your baby never knew anything other than love. And missing someone so dearly that you never even met. It’s a pain no one can describe. Because how can you properly grieve someone you never got to meet?’
Finishing the post, Kayla urges people to think twice about pretending to be pregnant as a joke. She said: ‘Because what’s funny for a second in your eyes crushes someone else’s heart for eternity.’
Reflecting on the events, which happened a year ago, Kayla wrote a new post and explained that the pain and trauma of the miscarriage still haunts her.
Now pregnant with herrainbow baby, Kayla explains that she cannot help but think she is going to suffer another miscarriage.
Beyond happy to announce we will be welcoming our sweet rainbow baby in May of 2018 ♥️ I am still early and this is a very scary but joyful moment for us and we appreciate any prayers sent our way….
Kayla wrote: ‘I understood why God took my baby and I slowly started to heal. But let me explain this to you, though I understood and though it is now ok that pain has never left. I fear everyday of my pregnancy even at 32 weeks hearing his heart and how perfectly he’s doing in there.
‘Every single time I’ve gone to the bathroom this pregnancy I brace myself for the blood. Every single damn time. It set in such a deep pain that I pray every night and every morning to just let him be ok, God please don’t take him.’
She continued: ‘People genuinely don’t understand how awful miscarriage is and that’s because no one talks about it but how is that fair to the mother trying to grieve the child she never met? People don’t understand you don’t heal from this no matter when you lost your child the pain never heals and the people around you never know because opening up is so damn scary.’